What was...

"Whatever is going on in your mind is what you are attracting"
- The Secret


225# -2#


So when I originally started the blog I was at 239 pounds but my original weight when I began weight watchers I was 246. I have lost more than 20 pounds and for the first time in 8 years I feel like I could get below 200 pounds. (Sad isn't it?)


I was reminded this week of just how much damage I have done with the negativity I have surrounded myself with. So I want to start by saying that person is starting to disintegrate. I have to change my outlook on life and the people I surround myself with if I am ever going to be successful. I feel like I should apologize to those people who I have hurt in the past. I seriously lacked coping skills and the proper attitude for a long time and to those who have been affected I am truly sorry. In order for me to move forward I have to put the past behind me and focus on being present. 


I started reading The Secret this week and while I am only 20 pages in I am starting to understand the concept of if you think negative thoughts you will draw negativity into your life. I am trying to make small changes everyday and remind myself to be grateful for what I have in life. Everyday will not be perfect but change takes time. 


I have acquired a regular exercise routine that consists of the gym, walking, exercise dvd's and the occasional class. I am no longer using my children as an excuse to not work out. I have many options and a ton of help so there is no excuse. I am grateful that my mom is down the street and willing to take my kids so I can get away for an hour and work on myself. I will say that putting my headphones in and blasting my music is very therapeutic. 




I am grateful for all of you and I love you. 


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