Life is Short

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You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of.  You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life.  
~Albert Camus


I wanted to start by saying that life is short. I have been reminded recently of how unpredictable our course in life can be. I think it's important to tell the people you love how important they are to you and why. It has become so easy in today's technologically advanced world to throw communication out the window. Sometimes it's okay to write someone a note or call them and tell them how much they mean to you. I am no better than anyone else but would you want the last communication you had with someone to be a text message or a Facebook post? 


This past week was better. I lost 2 more pounds and I have taken to walking almost every day if I can. I would say I average between 2 1/2 and 3 miles on my walks. I don't have a double stroller so Dominick is exercising with me. It seems as though it is much easier for mommy to carry the scooter home rather than ride it uphill. I am still trying to work with Vincent on staying in the stroller without a constant flow of snacks to get him to sit still. 


So let's just call a spade a spade. Being fat sucks. I have been heavy for so long that I have just come to accept how I look and all that goes with it. Even though I am unhappy with myself I dare anyone to talk shit to my face about how I look. I will sport whatever tank top or workout pants I damned well please and nobody will tell me otherwise. I sometimes wonder if I use my humor and communication skills to divert from the fact that I hate how I look. So all that being said I am working towards being more comfortable in my skin...and my clothes. 


I am working on my food addiction. I would love to say that every day is stellar and that my nutrition is 100% but it's probably closer to 70%. I know that I need to push myself harder and truly give up those foods that only fill an emotional void but it's really hard. I am thinking of just trying one thing a week and seeing how it goes. So for next week I think Starbucks has to go. Even the sugar free lattes are crap and I know it. I don't drink them more than twice a week but it's 2 too many! 


I may not update once a week just for lack of time but onto smaller waist lines and better attitudes!


And this is why I should read the nutritional labels before I order it.....


 http://www.starbucks.com/menu/drinks/espresso/iced-skinny-mocha?foodZone=9999

http://www.starbucks.com/menu/food/bakery/blueberry-scone?foodZone=9999