“It happens to everyone as they grow up. You find out who you are and what you want, and then you realize that people you've known forever don't see things the way you do. So you keep the wonderful memories, but find yourself moving on.”
― Nicholas Sparks

Waist > -1 Inch
Bust > No change
Hips > -2 Inches
Thighs> -1 Inch
Arms > No change
223 - 2lbs (total loss 23 lbs)

I'm sorry does that say 2 inches off my hips? Yes it sure does. Weight watchers has this hidden feature where we can track our measurements on a bi-weekly or monthly basis. I would say that change occurred over a three week period so it more than makes up for the slow loss of pounds! I have been going to the gym in the mornings and I try to do my Pilates DVD in the evenings. I suppose there is some benefit to my husband coming home late every night since I can do my DVD and he cannot make fun of me :)

This week has been a rather long one. I am thankful that Luke had last weekend off so I at least had an extra set of hands for a few days. He has been working late every night and will work through this weekend meaning that as of tonight he hasn't seen (in the awake and physical sense) the boys since Monday after work. I anticipate that I will be driving to Napa in the next few days so they can see him on a lunch break. It breaks my heart how much they miss him. I try to make things as easy as possible for everyone but should Dominick keep up with his attitude lately he will be riding to work with his father.

My quote sort of speaks to my frame of mind. I am not tossing anyone out but I am certainly starting to appreciate the need to surround myself with like-minded people. I try a little harder every day to lay off the complaining but that is a crazy hard habit to break. I do catch myself many days when I want to say something so badly or post it in Facebook. It is not worth being negative because the person it damages most is me.

I love you all for the support. Hopefully it's not too boring!

"Rome wasn't built in a day".....

225# - No change

And my butt isn't going to get smaller overnight. I know there are two trains of thought on whether to base weight loss off of a scale or how your clothes fit. Weight watchers focuses more on what the scale says so this week is perplexing. For those of you unfamiliar with weight watchers there is a set amount of food points per day. On top of the set amount of daily points there is activity points (exercise can be traded for food) and extra weekly points. I do not trade my activity points for food and occasionally I dip into my extra weekly points depending on what the day may bring. So I have been working out twice a day for most of this week with no change in weight...yep the scale and I are not talking.

I am not discouraged by the lack of weight loss. I will weigh myself again in a few days and I anticipate that I will see a change. My clothes fit different, they are loose which is a huge change from what I am used to. On top of that I notice a difference in my waist and my face but I have not measured myself yet. I have found that you do indeed lose fat in your fingers because in almost eight years of being married I have never been so afraid to lose my wedding rings. I made an appointment to have them re-sized on Monday!

As many of you know my husband works a lot. I am grateful for his job and all of the opportunities it allows us but somedays it just sucks. Today (Friday) is the first day that the boys have seen him since Tuesday evening. I forget how hard it is on the boys and Luke to not see each other so much. I don't realize after three days of not talking to each other much that he really has no idea what's going on around the house :) So I spend 15 minutes talking as fast as I can to get it all in and hope he doesn't forget everything I tell him. He has the unlucky job of balancing his time with the boys and trying to pay attention to me before I implode!

My goals for this week are simple. I would like the scale to move down obviously. I would like a date night with my husband. I would like to spend less time mediating and allow others to communicate effectively. There is a very simple concept known as communication that does not involve arguing, contradiction, being right, snide remarks and most of all placement of blame. I refuse to take sides but lets just look at this simply. Life is short. There is so much to be grateful for and in the scope of things life is pretty damned good.

I love you all
I will try not to hit the scale with a sledge hammer.

What was...

"Whatever is going on in your mind is what you are attracting"
- The Secret


225# -2#


So when I originally started the blog I was at 239 pounds but my original weight when I began weight watchers I was 246. I have lost more than 20 pounds and for the first time in 8 years I feel like I could get below 200 pounds. (Sad isn't it?)


I was reminded this week of just how much damage I have done with the negativity I have surrounded myself with. So I want to start by saying that person is starting to disintegrate. I have to change my outlook on life and the people I surround myself with if I am ever going to be successful. I feel like I should apologize to those people who I have hurt in the past. I seriously lacked coping skills and the proper attitude for a long time and to those who have been affected I am truly sorry. In order for me to move forward I have to put the past behind me and focus on being present. 


I started reading The Secret this week and while I am only 20 pages in I am starting to understand the concept of if you think negative thoughts you will draw negativity into your life. I am trying to make small changes everyday and remind myself to be grateful for what I have in life. Everyday will not be perfect but change takes time. 


I have acquired a regular exercise routine that consists of the gym, walking, exercise dvd's and the occasional class. I am no longer using my children as an excuse to not work out. I have many options and a ton of help so there is no excuse. I am grateful that my mom is down the street and willing to take my kids so I can get away for an hour and work on myself. I will say that putting my headphones in and blasting my music is very therapeutic. 




I am grateful for all of you and I love you. 


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