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You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life.
~Albert Camus
I wanted to start by saying that life is short. I have been reminded recently of how unpredictable our course in life can be. I think it's important to tell the people you love how important they are to you and why. It has become so easy in today's technologically advanced world to throw communication out the window. Sometimes it's okay to write someone a note or call them and tell them how much they mean to you. I am no better than anyone else but would you want the last communication you had with someone to be a text message or a Facebook post?
This past week was better. I lost 2 more pounds and I have taken to walking almost every day if I can. I would say I average between 2 1/2 and 3 miles on my walks. I don't have a double stroller so Dominick is exercising with me. It seems as though it is much easier for mommy to carry the scooter home rather than ride it uphill. I am still trying to work with Vincent on staying in the stroller without a constant flow of snacks to get him to sit still.
So let's just call a spade a spade. Being fat sucks. I have been heavy for so long that I have just come to accept how I look and all that goes with it. Even though I am unhappy with myself I dare anyone to talk shit to my face about how I look. I will sport whatever tank top or workout pants I damned well please and nobody will tell me otherwise. I sometimes wonder if I use my humor and communication skills to divert from the fact that I hate how I look. So all that being said I am working towards being more comfortable in my skin...and my clothes.
I am working on my food addiction. I would love to say that every day is stellar and that my nutrition is 100% but it's probably closer to 70%. I know that I need to push myself harder and truly give up those foods that only fill an emotional void but it's really hard. I am thinking of just trying one thing a week and seeing how it goes. So for next week I think Starbucks has to go. Even the sugar free lattes are crap and I know it. I don't drink them more than twice a week but it's 2 too many!
I may not update once a week just for lack of time but onto smaller waist lines and better attitudes!
And this is why I should read the nutritional labels before I order it.....
http://www.starbucks.com/menu/drinks/espresso/iced-skinny-mocha?foodZone=9999
http://www.starbucks.com/menu/food/bakery/blueberry-scone?foodZone=9999
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Where Have I Been???
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Hello all,
I took a week off from blogging because to be quite honest I didn't have a free moment to sit down and write! As many of you know Vincent is on his way to giving his mommy (and g-ma) an excessive amount of gray hair before it's really necessary. After two consecutive days spent at Kaiser the doctor concluded that he had pneumonia, bronchiolitis and double ear infections. Needless to say we were sent home with all kinds of great drugs in order to get his breathing and the infection under control. So 10 days later he is a brand new kid and I am almost sleeping through the night again!
I lost 3 more pounds over the course of the past two weeks. I could have lost more but there were a few days plagued by convenience food due to a lengthy amount of time spent at the doctor's office. I have cut out the simple sugars at night and try to stick to cut up apples or greek yogurt with fruit on top. My biggest weaknesses are snacking during the day because I am bored or eating sweets at night because I am ADDICTED. I have started walking with Vincent and I try to average in the 3 mile range. I am hoping that as my butt gets smaller my feet start to scream less the morning after walking.
I have come to a few revelations lately. Firstly I do not like Physiology. Not even a little. I have had to take a step back and look at the nearly 40 units of nursing pre-requisites and wonder if that is really what I want to do in life. The short amount of time spent working at the Sheriff's office and a few administration of justice classes have made me question where my passion lies. I made a brash decision fueled by a lack of sleep and a bad night at work when I quit dispatch. I don't want to be a police officer but I would not mind working a civilian position again. That being said...we will just have to see what happens in the future.
The second revelation is how much I miss when I sit around the house and wait for life to come to me. I have had to make a few changes to try and get my head right and as I do I realize what I am missing. My children are only small once. In the near future they will not want to hug me and cuddle with me or even sit in the same room. I may not be the top candidate for "stay at home mom" but certainly I need to enjoy the time I spend with my kids. I find that the more I walk and the more time I spend outside I appreciate where I am in life. I live in an amazing place and have an amazing family. Every day is not perfect and I still have a lot of work to do on myself but the fog is starting to clear and I am thankful for that.
Hello all,
I took a week off from blogging because to be quite honest I didn't have a free moment to sit down and write! As many of you know Vincent is on his way to giving his mommy (and g-ma) an excessive amount of gray hair before it's really necessary. After two consecutive days spent at Kaiser the doctor concluded that he had pneumonia, bronchiolitis and double ear infections. Needless to say we were sent home with all kinds of great drugs in order to get his breathing and the infection under control. So 10 days later he is a brand new kid and I am almost sleeping through the night again!
I lost 3 more pounds over the course of the past two weeks. I could have lost more but there were a few days plagued by convenience food due to a lengthy amount of time spent at the doctor's office. I have cut out the simple sugars at night and try to stick to cut up apples or greek yogurt with fruit on top. My biggest weaknesses are snacking during the day because I am bored or eating sweets at night because I am ADDICTED. I have started walking with Vincent and I try to average in the 3 mile range. I am hoping that as my butt gets smaller my feet start to scream less the morning after walking.
I have come to a few revelations lately. Firstly I do not like Physiology. Not even a little. I have had to take a step back and look at the nearly 40 units of nursing pre-requisites and wonder if that is really what I want to do in life. The short amount of time spent working at the Sheriff's office and a few administration of justice classes have made me question where my passion lies. I made a brash decision fueled by a lack of sleep and a bad night at work when I quit dispatch. I don't want to be a police officer but I would not mind working a civilian position again. That being said...we will just have to see what happens in the future.
The second revelation is how much I miss when I sit around the house and wait for life to come to me. I have had to make a few changes to try and get my head right and as I do I realize what I am missing. My children are only small once. In the near future they will not want to hug me and cuddle with me or even sit in the same room. I may not be the top candidate for "stay at home mom" but certainly I need to enjoy the time I spend with my kids. I find that the more I walk and the more time I spend outside I appreciate where I am in life. I live in an amazing place and have an amazing family. Every day is not perfect and I still have a lot of work to do on myself but the fog is starting to clear and I am thankful for that.
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