“Every human being is the author of his own health or disease.” - Buddha
This journey is one that is long overdue. I am finally starting to see that the person I am is not the person I want to be anymore. I am unhappy in my own skin and I have been that way for quite some time. I thought starting a blog might be fun, it will challenge me to do well so I can post my progress and my friends can follow along if they'd like.
I have never been "small", even throughout high school I was a size 10 or 12. This is not a journey to a size 4 because that is not realistic. In high school I played water polo and I swam and more or less ate whatever I wanted. I wasn't raised in a household with junk food or a ton of processed food but we grew up eating huge portions. Every event my family hosts is centered around food and it has always been that way. I think that a good portion of my weight problem comes from an addiction to food or at least certain types of foods. Certainly my affinity towards cold beer does not help :)
I have joined weight watchers again and I think that while I may not eat perfectly it is forcing me to write it all down. I have tried so many different approaches it is kind of sad. I've done medical weight loss with the appetite suppressants and B12 shots, I have done weight watchers, I have done cold turkey calorie counting, I have had fitness/nutrition coaches and I even jumped through the hoops at Kaiser for their bariatric surgery program. Only to have a surgeon tell me that I am not a good candidate for weight loss surgery.
So here's the reality. I have had all my blood work done and as of yet all of my results came back in the normal range. I am considered obese and I teeter on the line of morbid obesity. My BMI is right around 39 and at 5'5" I weigh 239 lbs. I have been heavy for nearly 10 years and although this won't be easy I need to get my weight down.
My goals are simple...I want to wear clothes in normal sizes. I want to be able to run a mile or 5 miles without feeling like my knees will collapse under me. I want to set an example for my children that they can eat healthy foods and exercise and they are not condemned to a life of being heavy. My husband is, and always has been 100% on board. I know he is proud of me no matter what I do but certainly who doesn't want a hot wife?
I am trying to set parameters for myself to follow my points every day and to workout once a day regardless of what the activity might be. I want to stay off of Facebook as much as possible and try to achieve a mindset conducive to mental and physical health. I am new to blogging so I will work on adding pictures and fancy stuff as I go along!
All my love,
Shauna
I have never been "small", even throughout high school I was a size 10 or 12. This is not a journey to a size 4 because that is not realistic. In high school I played water polo and I swam and more or less ate whatever I wanted. I wasn't raised in a household with junk food or a ton of processed food but we grew up eating huge portions. Every event my family hosts is centered around food and it has always been that way. I think that a good portion of my weight problem comes from an addiction to food or at least certain types of foods. Certainly my affinity towards cold beer does not help :)
I have joined weight watchers again and I think that while I may not eat perfectly it is forcing me to write it all down. I have tried so many different approaches it is kind of sad. I've done medical weight loss with the appetite suppressants and B12 shots, I have done weight watchers, I have done cold turkey calorie counting, I have had fitness/nutrition coaches and I even jumped through the hoops at Kaiser for their bariatric surgery program. Only to have a surgeon tell me that I am not a good candidate for weight loss surgery.
So here's the reality. I have had all my blood work done and as of yet all of my results came back in the normal range. I am considered obese and I teeter on the line of morbid obesity. My BMI is right around 39 and at 5'5" I weigh 239 lbs. I have been heavy for nearly 10 years and although this won't be easy I need to get my weight down.
My goals are simple...I want to wear clothes in normal sizes. I want to be able to run a mile or 5 miles without feeling like my knees will collapse under me. I want to set an example for my children that they can eat healthy foods and exercise and they are not condemned to a life of being heavy. My husband is, and always has been 100% on board. I know he is proud of me no matter what I do but certainly who doesn't want a hot wife?
I am trying to set parameters for myself to follow my points every day and to workout once a day regardless of what the activity might be. I want to stay off of Facebook as much as possible and try to achieve a mindset conducive to mental and physical health. I am new to blogging so I will work on adding pictures and fancy stuff as I go along!
All my love,
Shauna
Much love to you, Shauna! Blogging is a great way to keep track for yourself and make yourself accountable to your friends and family who read this. For what it's worth, I think you look beautiful. I would never think "morbidly obese" when I see your pictures! So I think it's admirable that you're doing this for health too - so you can be around for your kids and be available to them, not sidelined for health reasons. Best luck and cheers to your health!
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