Better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to speak out and remove all doubt.
Mark Twain
4# down -- 235 #
I would love to tell you that I ran a mile everyday and made it to the gym religiously but this first week has been hampered by distractions. I am counting my points on weight watchers and trying to make choices that are more nutrient dense rather than points focused. I am slowly attempting to work out as much of the simple sugars in my diet as possible. My blood work came back in the normal range but certainly if I am not careful I am going to tip the scale towards pre-diabetes. Top that off with a thyroid condition and really if it comes in a box I probably need to throw it away!
I started school this week. One class, physiology, Tuesdays and Thursdays, 11am to 3:30pm. I was so excited to not have to wait list this class it didn't occur to me to see who the instructor was. This is why they make sites like rate my professor for those of you thinking of taking courses. :) He cannot be older than 30, skinny jeans, thick glasses, flannel shirts, vegetarian, UC Berkeley graduate. I try not to judge. If I had to count the amount of times the man says "um" in a lecture it would be in the hundreds. I am taking a positive stance that I will hopefully learn something and pass the course while my professor learns how to teach it.
At this point in my life I am a seasoned lifetime college student. Certainly showing up an hour before class starts would seem to be enough time to find parking. Then I remember that the rest of the student population takes 11am classes because they don't want to get out of bed and nobody carpools. After more than an hour of driving from lot to lot I finally found a spot. I would consider the walk from the overflow lot when I am 15 minutes late considerable exercise for the morning. I mean who doesn't want to show up to class sweating and red faced? Needless to say next week I will walk from the mall if I have to.
I have successfully managed to keep my Facebook comments at a minimum this week! I find it can be dysfunctionally therapeutic but it does nothing for me (or anyone else) to vent half-explained frustrations all the time. I am sure that while I love the concept of social networking and snooping everyone's pictures it really takes up far too much of my day. If my brain is not in line with the rest of my body then getting healthy will be a hell of a lot harder.
My goal for the next week is to start studying physiology like I care about the class....oh and.....Exercise, activity, get moving, do something...
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Friday, January 27, 2012
Monday, January 23, 2012
A place to start
“Every human being is the author of his own health or disease.” - Buddha
This journey is one that is long overdue. I am finally starting to see that the person I am is not the person I want to be anymore. I am unhappy in my own skin and I have been that way for quite some time. I thought starting a blog might be fun, it will challenge me to do well so I can post my progress and my friends can follow along if they'd like.
I have never been "small", even throughout high school I was a size 10 or 12. This is not a journey to a size 4 because that is not realistic. In high school I played water polo and I swam and more or less ate whatever I wanted. I wasn't raised in a household with junk food or a ton of processed food but we grew up eating huge portions. Every event my family hosts is centered around food and it has always been that way. I think that a good portion of my weight problem comes from an addiction to food or at least certain types of foods. Certainly my affinity towards cold beer does not help :)
I have joined weight watchers again and I think that while I may not eat perfectly it is forcing me to write it all down. I have tried so many different approaches it is kind of sad. I've done medical weight loss with the appetite suppressants and B12 shots, I have done weight watchers, I have done cold turkey calorie counting, I have had fitness/nutrition coaches and I even jumped through the hoops at Kaiser for their bariatric surgery program. Only to have a surgeon tell me that I am not a good candidate for weight loss surgery.
So here's the reality. I have had all my blood work done and as of yet all of my results came back in the normal range. I am considered obese and I teeter on the line of morbid obesity. My BMI is right around 39 and at 5'5" I weigh 239 lbs. I have been heavy for nearly 10 years and although this won't be easy I need to get my weight down.
My goals are simple...I want to wear clothes in normal sizes. I want to be able to run a mile or 5 miles without feeling like my knees will collapse under me. I want to set an example for my children that they can eat healthy foods and exercise and they are not condemned to a life of being heavy. My husband is, and always has been 100% on board. I know he is proud of me no matter what I do but certainly who doesn't want a hot wife?
I am trying to set parameters for myself to follow my points every day and to workout once a day regardless of what the activity might be. I want to stay off of Facebook as much as possible and try to achieve a mindset conducive to mental and physical health. I am new to blogging so I will work on adding pictures and fancy stuff as I go along!
All my love,
Shauna
I have never been "small", even throughout high school I was a size 10 or 12. This is not a journey to a size 4 because that is not realistic. In high school I played water polo and I swam and more or less ate whatever I wanted. I wasn't raised in a household with junk food or a ton of processed food but we grew up eating huge portions. Every event my family hosts is centered around food and it has always been that way. I think that a good portion of my weight problem comes from an addiction to food or at least certain types of foods. Certainly my affinity towards cold beer does not help :)
I have joined weight watchers again and I think that while I may not eat perfectly it is forcing me to write it all down. I have tried so many different approaches it is kind of sad. I've done medical weight loss with the appetite suppressants and B12 shots, I have done weight watchers, I have done cold turkey calorie counting, I have had fitness/nutrition coaches and I even jumped through the hoops at Kaiser for their bariatric surgery program. Only to have a surgeon tell me that I am not a good candidate for weight loss surgery.
So here's the reality. I have had all my blood work done and as of yet all of my results came back in the normal range. I am considered obese and I teeter on the line of morbid obesity. My BMI is right around 39 and at 5'5" I weigh 239 lbs. I have been heavy for nearly 10 years and although this won't be easy I need to get my weight down.
My goals are simple...I want to wear clothes in normal sizes. I want to be able to run a mile or 5 miles without feeling like my knees will collapse under me. I want to set an example for my children that they can eat healthy foods and exercise and they are not condemned to a life of being heavy. My husband is, and always has been 100% on board. I know he is proud of me no matter what I do but certainly who doesn't want a hot wife?
I am trying to set parameters for myself to follow my points every day and to workout once a day regardless of what the activity might be. I want to stay off of Facebook as much as possible and try to achieve a mindset conducive to mental and physical health. I am new to blogging so I will work on adding pictures and fancy stuff as I go along!
All my love,
Shauna
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